Getting anything done

So... I got sick, and my 2 year old daughter got sick, and here we are at Saturday night,  no soap made, no blood donations,  not enough cleaning, I pretty much only stressed about trying out this plant based diet. Both my husband and I are devoted enough to only eat plants, but we don't really want to tell people or make a big deal out of it. We had one of our first completely vegan meals tonight,  and, well, let me just type out our conversation

Jonathan: so the meal was good tonight.

Me: oh good, im glad, it was actually our first meal that was completely vegan.

I don't think that I'm willing to call myself a vegan.

Oh really? How come?

Because when I think of theword vegan I picture chanting to try to summon the spirit of the antelope and praying to mother nature. 

What? Haha, well  I can see a tatooed hippy with lots of piercings, but....

I just want to be called an occasional carnivore.

He makes me laugh. Anyways,  we are devoted to a plant based diet more for health and because of the fact that we consume less resources by not eating animal products, but we are not so hard pressed that we would make a fuss at a barbecue.  We are not planning on buying any more or cooking animal products for ourselves.

So before we watched Forks over knives,  I had stocked up on some freezer chicken.  So we are still slowly breaking into veganism, or occasionally carnivorous... but we will probably shift and change for life periods, (if I get pregnant again or at the suggestion of a doctor...) but I think the documentary has changed our perspective,  and we will be a lot more careful about animal products. 

As I am typing this,  my husband saw an add for Jack in the box,  and he said "I have heard Jack in the Box is amazing.... wait, I guess I can't say that anymore, now that I'm an antelope  chanter..."

the loss

May 6th, 2014 we took my 5 month old off life support.  He passed into the arms of Jesus. We only had him home 9 days of his life,  and he was in intensive care all of the rest of his life.  He was born hlhs, half of his heart just a mass. After his first open heart surgery,  he never recovered, and we were transfered to Lurie childrens for a heart transplant.  He got the transplant,  but suffered severe rejection. It seems like a long dream, and his suffering and pain on earth only help us to rejoice that he is in such a better place now.  We love you,  Jace,  and we miss you dearly.

I have been trying to get back to life,  and my 2 year old keeps me sane some days,  and drives me crazy other days! She is our biggest blessing,  and it is because of her we continue to relinquish control over to God in many areas of our lives.  We have learned so much from our children,  about control and releasing that control over and over to our God who carries us.

Today  I am sick, and I have decided to try blogging again. I just watched Forks vs. Knives on netflix and I would lile to start introducing my family to a diet that will hopefully keep us all healthier,  and hopefully we will have more children,  free from birth defects.

I also am trying to weed out chemicals from my household, except for the basement for my pottery. I just switched to a shampoo bar, and only wash my face with oil (ocm method). I have dreams for my yard of no weeds and more herbs!

This week on my way to healing, I am hoping to get feeling better,  donate blood, make some soap using a cold process and lye, and do some fun fun things with my daughter.